Happy Birthday Baby!!

Our sweet precious baby... today is your first birthday and we would have so loved to be able to hold you in our arms. We are so very sorry that we can't come get you yet. That wonderful, miraculous day is coming dear one. God will say it's time and we will go. We are praying that very soon the judge will sign the papers that say we are your mommy and daddy and we can take you home forever. We have everything ready for you.

Please know today that we love you with all of our hearts, and we miss you so much even though we havn't been able to hold you yet. We stare at your pictures and dream of what it will be like when we are finally together as a family. Mommy is making an Indian dish for Thanksgiving today in honor of you-Indian Cutlets. Jay's mommy gave me the recipe. Everyone is going to try it and we will all be thinking of you as we eat and wishing you were here.

When you come home, we will have a birthday party. We will have cake and ice cream, and presents just for you! Please remember daddy and I are praying and longing for that day to come very soon. WE LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!

Still Waiting

I could never have imagined that we would still be waiting on legals, but here we are... still waiting. I've prayed and prayed and prayed, asked others to pray, fasted, and nothing has changed: except me. I'm realizing that through this, somehow, God is changing me. Would I have chosen this path? NO!! Still, his will remains. I'm having to dig down deep to find my faith, and some days that is very hard; many many tears have slid down my cheeks these last few months. I've cried out to God in both anger and sadness however, I'm convinced that even though I can't see the situation changing he hears me. In the deepest part of my faith on the longest darkest nights I know that he sees me and cares. I found this poem in a book I'm reading titled Hannah's Hope-

Waiting

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried. Quietly,patiently, lovingly, He replied. I pleaded, and I wept for a clue to my fate, And the Master so gently said, "Child you must wait." "Wait? You say wait?" my indignet reply. "Lord, I need answers, I need to know why. Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your word."

"My future, and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait? I'm needing a yes, a go-ahead sign, or even a no, to which I can resign.

"And Lord you have promised that if we believe, we need but to ask, and we shall receive. And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry: I'm weary of asking: I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate as my Master replied once again, "You must wait." So I slumped in my chair; defeated and taut and grumbled to God; "So I'm waiting, for what?"

He seemed then to kneel and His eyes met with mine and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens, darken the sun, raise the dead, cause the mountains to run.

"All you see I could give, and pleased you would be. You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me. You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint; you'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; You'd not learn to trust, just by knowing I'm there. You'd not know the joy of resting in Me, When darkness and silence was all you could see.

"You would never experience that fullness of love as the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove. You would not know that I give, and I save, for a start, but you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart.

The glow of My comfort late in the night; the faith that I give when you walk without sight; the depth that's beyond getting just what you ask from an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"And you never would know, should your pain quickly flee, what it means that My grace is sufficent for thee. Yes, your dreams for that loved one o'ernight could come true, but the loss! if you lost what I'm doing in you.

"So be silent, my child, and in time you will see that the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me. And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late, My most precious answer of all... is still...wait.

-Russell Kelfer

Diwali In India

I found this website that tells about the Indian holiday that is happening in India... Diwali, Festival of Lights. I hope that somehow Jadyn might be able to see some of the pretty lights through the windows of the orphanage. If not sweet baby, we will see lots of them when you get home. I promise.

The Divine Weaver

My life is but a weaving between my God and me, I do not choose the colors he worketh steadily, oftimes He weaveth sorrow, and I in foolish pride, forget he sees the upper, and I the underside. Not till the loom is silent, and shuttles cease to fly, will God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why. The dark threads are as needful in the skillful Weaver's hand, as the threads of gold and silver in the pattern he has planned.

Anonymous

Thank you Lord that we can rest and trust in the knowledge that you are in control of our lives. We trust you God and pray that you will bring our daughter home soon.

• Asking everyone to be in prayer for all of the families this week as the high court is now back is session after the long holiday!!

Jadyn's God Parents

We had a great time visiting with my cousin Teresa and her husband Steve,Jadyn's God Parents, last weekend. They were here for the family reunion and stayed a night with us. They were finally able to see Jadyn's room for the first time. Teresa and I shared some tears that night as we looked at all of the shower gifts we have received from family and friends . She and Steve are waiting right along with us. We love them so very much and just can't wait for Jadyn to meet them, and they can't wait to meet her!

Teresa made the beautiful baby blanket, in her lap, for Jadyn. It's just perfect in the room. It's obvious so much love went in it because there are so many intricate little details. Thank you Teresa! What a special family heirloom!

Summer Shower

Just had to share these pics from the last shower we had back in August. My wonderful friends, Heather and Janice, had this one for us. I was able to visit and catch up with lots of friends from our old church that I hadn't seen in quite a while. We received so many cute clothes and other items. Jadyn is going to have so many outfits! Her framed referral picture is of course something I'll keep forever. There were about three framed pictures of her sitting on the tables, so thoughtful and sweet.

Sorry I'm so late in posting this. I 've been trying for a while, but I've been having trouble uploading images to my blog.

Waiting

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
Psalm 130:5

Haven't blogged in a while, but there is nothing new to tell. We are still just waiting. There is always hope for tomorrow. I know that each new day is one day closer to bringing our baby girl home. I finally convinced myself to go and exchange her 3-6month clothes for 6-9months. This was a difficult thing for me to do, because it reminded me of the fact that she is getting bigger without us, and we are missing some of her life.

We had a family reunion with Shane's family this weekend. We took pictures of Jadyn with us to show everyone. His mother is so very proud and excited! She and I both spent the day a little teary eyed. We thought we would be traveling by now, but that was not God's plan. When He says it's time, we will go. I know this, however some days in spite of knowing this, it's still just down right hard. I'm thankful though that God knows and understands my heart. Please keep praying for us! We know that prayers will bring us through this time.